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Month: July, 2016

Always a matter of life and death

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Still from Michael Powell & Emeric Pressburger‘s 1946 masterpiece A matter of life and death also known as Stairway to heaven.

There are only two paths to go in life: the path that leads you to the solution, and the one that leads you deep into the problem. So yeah, almost every single little decision you make is a matter of life and death in the end.

Call me a radical.


A vulgar display of power*


Infamous Paul Tibbets on board of the equally infamous fighter Enola Gay, which dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima on 6th August 1945.

To some people, winning is not enough. They need to defeat and humiliate their rivals.

*A quote from the classic The Exorcist (1973), which was later used by nineties American metal band Pantera as the title of their sixth studio album.


A taste for punishment


Vanessa Redgrave as a repressed nun in The Devils (1971), one of the weirdest but also most visually attractive films by iconoclast director Ken Russell.

I’ve always thought it’s funny the fact that I wasn’t christened and however I’ve always been prone to guilt, self-punishment and harsh self-judgement.

I might have been a great inquisitioner during the Middle Ages.


My favourite outfit

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Kwakiutl transformation mask

I love people who, no matter what, make you feel free whenever you’re around them.

You can be, say, do what you want and you won’t ever be judged.

I used to be afraid of those people, because since I had no clue about what they expected from me, I didn’t know how to act in front of them. It made me feel frustrated. Any kind of demonstration was useless.

I am used to trying to prove myself before others all the time. But with those people these strategies won’t do.

And that’s because they’re able to love you for what you are and will be. There’s no room for admiration. Just pure love.

I’ve never said that before, but my favourite outfit is and has always been naked. You never feel as free as when you show your bare skin. 

Unfortunately, morals are a huge obstacle in our society to attain that kind of freedom.

We wear our clothes and behavior as our identity and as a mask. But I never feel as free as when I get rid of them.

When you’re right next to someone who’s a free spirit, you feel that kind of freedom, like the breeze caressing every corner of your body.

(To my friend Y.)

Top of the world?


Still from the first and least known version of Scarface (1932), a masterpiece directed by Howard Hawks and produced by Howard Hughes.


This society’s obsession with uniqueness and originality is pretty idiotic. We focus our ambitions and goals in making a difference (even if that means stepping on one another to stand out), whereas we don’t realise that each and everyone of us are already unique without trying.

Blinded by the brightness


The Aztec Sun Stone, a heavy sculpture found in Mexico in 1790 and supposedly used as a means to measure time.

-What are you afraid of the most?


From the movie 우리들의 행복한 시간  (Maundy Thursday) (2006)